It was suggested to me by Law Enforcement to keep a log. Most of this work has written to protect and defend children and vulnerable adults. Logging incidents or events documents the consequences of taking the suggestions we've been given, and given time to reflect upon the work, may help us to develop adaptations we're currently unfamiliar with. We realize that sometimes we have issues with reporting, but find that even documenting the issues will help. You'll find more direction here:
Guidance and Support.
This is only an anonymous example. My goal is to empower an average person to defend him or herself without becoming harmful. The question is, where to draw the line. For example, does it help to rewrite a report about an Instance of Singularity that uses names without them? I'm not using names or locations in these documents unless dictated by the requirements of copyright, but is that making things better or worse? We can't use blame without providing our names, and because this document does seem to do so at times, though not intending to, I've provided an Open Letter on my own Web Development site with my contact information so you can contact me with your concerns if you need to.
The publication of this log began in 2012, and by 2014 stalking began at the places of publication. Changes to this document and related pages include omissions, and intentional efforts to defame the author by replacing an innocent report with hateful and confusing text to invalidate the testimony.
It may be considered irrational to report incidents that lead to assaults, but we are required to do so when seeking health care for injuries that result from crime. And, because our health care treatment resulted from doubt about our reports in the first place, the treatment is not for an illness at all, but an adaptation to keep suspects free from harm, and at large to pay for it. We shared our circumstances with those who you will believe in order to get something done about the problem.
(Please see one example of a Constitutional Limitations)
1962: Visited Grandma while on vacation abroad, and got lost following a cat down the avenue.
1964: Sex conduct ends my parents marriage. Strange dreams, ear aches and pressure I don't understand disturbs my sleep. Mother comforts me with a hot water bottle wrapped in cloth and by cradling me in her rocking chair.
1960's: Stray cats get rounded up and brought to the University for experimentation including the use of electrodes implanted into their heads.
1960's: My uncle slides off a muddy road in the dark on the edge of a cliff while we were in the back. Dad got out and, after several tries, pushed us back onto the road.
1965: Mounting pressures become an indulgence. I bang my head on the wall, grimace at the dinner table, and find ways to relieve the stress by grunting and groaning in the bathroom hallway.
1966: I hit my neighbor with a sovenier baseball bat while practicing a swing. I told his mother about it right away, but didn't see him get back up.
1967: A specialist puts tubes in my ears to relieve my earaches.
1960's: My uncle, a girl across the street, and the pilot that flew us back to Grandma's house after a prolonged stay with my uncle die premature and violent deaths.
1968: My step-dad kisses us before we go to bed by imitating the people 'at the zoo' (near the university) where we went to school.
1968: While learning to tingle each other by writing on our backs, our step-dad joins in by tickling our necks until we laughed, and then choking us until we couldn't breathe.
1968: Efforts to cope with new threats in the house result in evaluations to determine our capacity to defend ourselves, and identify the source of the threats.
1968: Taught to tie a neck tie under the eyelet to a jumper my toddler brother used to learn to walk.
1968: Melted down my injection molding equipment when we were required to go to Church (I left it plugged in behind the couch).
1969: While digging out my Scoutmaster's basement, and working on the farm, we were introduced to alcohol. "Work like a man, drink like a man!" we were told.
1970: After cleaning up from work at our uncles farm, my step-father's powers of creation displays. While I don't remember what happened after the posing began, we prayed the Rosary that night, and I was later required to report that incident and others in therapy.
1974: Required to provide a colonic to my little brother before bedtime, my mother told me how to provide the procedure while painting her nails just prior to leaving for dinner with a friend. Out of concern for the insertion, I asked if he'd like to do so for himself, he said: "No, Mom always does it for me".
1975: Compulsive concerns about cleanliness in the house requires me to strip off my work-clothes in the mudroom before heading in, but approached from behind while putting my clothes in the washer makes my step-father's attention more difficult to avoid.
Even if I was offended by a father I didn't know well, or a power of creation that we don't always have control over, after careful study of spiritual teachings, I realized that God, and His power to create can only be a consciousness in the world if we see Him in our community. It is His conscious contact with us that gives us the power to be aware of His judgements and our duties. Though our parents may not be the best example of God in our lives, when we're children, there are none other more reliable to turn to.
We're not always conscious of His judgement because we are the vitality, activity and actuality of the state He posits, but we wouldn't have an understanding of the problems we face without His consciousness. In that moment of awareness, our consciousness becomes His actuality and our duties become clear.
(Witnessing evidence of the works of love ought to be followed by reverence.)
1975: While dreaming of a young girl in bed, my step-dad watches through my bedroom window outside in the dark.
1975: Interrogated by my Step-Father repeatedly asking "Why do you leave the lights on?" (later I realized this might be because by doing so, I provided the opportunity to observe my behavior. Until until I took at good look at that fact his questions tortured me).
1976: Felt up by my boss while on the job.
1976: Beaten-up by the side-kick of 'the boss', who also told me not to be the spokesperson for the crew.
Spring 1978: Went with a friend to get a job out of State. I thought we'd both get hired, but he didn't, and it may have been my assumptions that cost him the time and money to apply.
Summer 1978: Lost all my belongings when I left my work camp for a weekend with the family (The thief left my hardhat with defecation in it, and a sock he wiped with).
Fall of 1978: Went to work down south for a while and witnessed my step mother peel the scab off my half brother's penis after his circumcision. He cried, but there was nothing I could do about it. I don't really know why I had to see that happen, but its troubled me ever since.
Summer 1979: Discussed concerns about my step-father's behavior with my uncle, a Priest. He suggestively motioned with his eyes to join him in my bed.
1979: Drug and alcohol induced spiritual experience while fishing on a lake with a friend.
1980: A spiritual experience crashes me to my knees while in treatment for alcoholism. I remembered a repressed memory while doing personal inventory.
Fall 1981: Disciplined my brother while medicated on tranquilizers by striking him when he refused to go to bed by 10:30 PM (it was mother's expectation of me to require him to do so).
1982: Started experiencing new fields and energies as a result of disciplining myself to daily meditation, and taking guidance from a good friend.
1984: Enjoyed a new sense of freedom when living on my own and returning to school.
1984: A biohazard sign is hung on my door when hospitalized by recurring trauma because I was placed in an apartment with a person infected by HIV. Resulting negativity leads to damaging opinions.
1986: Shortly after hosting a Christmas Party for my family, my girlfriend attempts suicide, and I find myself groping on my hands and knees on the floor of my apartment with no light in my imagination for what might have caused such a thing to occur.
1989: Someone told a police officer, who told the Mother of my Daughter, that 'white stuff' was found on my daughter's body in the hospital (A white waxy substance is normally on the skin of newborns).
February 1990: Had a disagreement with my grandmother about the placement of my daughter with my step-dad to get him off my back, but FALSE ALLEGATIONS made in a report dated 2-28-1990 ruined my opportunity to deal with the problems in court. I don't know who made the statements, but the report claims my mother spoke to the Lieutenant listed in the report by meeting with her shortly later.
1990: While trying to adjudicate parental rights, a witness said I would 'cut my daughter's ears off'.
1992: Lost my home and moved to another State to make my way.
1992: Someone I met in a coffee shop said she was making arrangements to experiment on Autistic Children by using vibration.
1994: Sued for child support by the Mother of my second Daughter by Long-arm Petition while trying to become self supporting.
1996: Organized in an effort to close a Hospital by ending County based referrals. (Hospital Staff was accused of causing the deaths of three patients while improperly restrained).
1996: Recruited to work as an advocate for vulnerable adults in the health care system.
1997: Granted a conditional release after being convicted of reckless driving (for driving on a flat).
This example does not provide a prosectution - its not supposed to. The goal is to show how easy it is to overlook the real causes and conditions of our circumstances, and the danger of attempting to do this work on our own. The government does not have to stop defamation, but others can and do.
In a prior effort to report, the author shared what was apparently inflammatory information - we believe it lead to an assault.
Is that wrong? Because a violent crime took place, the information used to justify it has to be 'toned down'. Offensive language must be removed, and ambiguity is safe - not crazy, or unreliable. There are many reports, and usually at least two reporters: the author, and the publisher. Perhaps the most tragic problem of all, is that the Internet can never really represent Itself. Its always representing others.
Our reputations may be sullied by ambiguous or unreliable accounts, but decisions made by the Courts can ruin our lives. If our only remaining opportunity for a safe defense or passage online becomes compromised, then we'll have no recourse at all.
While we may be mocked in our efforts to do so, God is not mocked, and we're seeking new accounts every day, but will it help them, or become harmful? We believe that without these lessons, it will become harmful to innocent children - and deadly to us all. Prior to this, that is how we were taught! Our powers of awareness during crisis are feeble, especially when traumatized.
Because the author was unaware of the consequences of his bad swing, he failed to respond to his friend's need for recovery. But what's become clear, is that God's effort to forgive them both is at work. These are difficult challenges fo face when we're young children, but we've been able to overcome our human failure to make things right by witnessing what God can do in these works. We're lucky to be able to pass it on.
Please see: Project Details for an example of the kinds of problems we've encountered with spoken language, and lessons in general.
An entry from 2017 was deleted from this record, but the report was also emailed to the landlord and law enforcement so I will not provide it again.
2-8-2020: Found corruptions to the copy of my log I keep on my phone. Fraudulent claims made in the copy on my phone include: